Finally...My heart opened

Have you ever held on to your beliefs so tightly that you end up alone (separate) in the middle of a group? My body felt anger, resentment, righteousness, envy, and disappointment. But, turning away from my emotions, my mind took over, to the fallback position…"I'm strong, self-sufficient, independent. I'll figure it out on my own". 

IN THAT VERY MOMENT, my heart closed, constricted, shrank. I abandoned the deep place of inner strength that I had cultivated within my heart. This is the space where I am enough, I feel whole and complete, I trust my wants, needs and desires will be met.

 “How deeply we feel, is directly proportional to how deeply we hurt". kd

Justification keeps us reliving the hurt, the trauma. Vulnerability is the way back to feeling. 

This was not a road I walked alone. I'm so very thankful for the unconditional love and gentle, steady guidance in which I was held. I was able to be vulnerable again, to feel my humanness again. Softening the hard edges and walls I put up, clearing and widening the lens I was looking through allowed my heart to open to love, to more truth, and more light.

I returned (again) to my steadfast sovereign Self.